Flying without wings

kolky @ 2008-06-19T00:08:00

2008-06-18T23:08:43Z

Insomnia...

SUCKS.

It's 00:05

I'm on the phone to my GF

And I can't sleep.

Ideas?

kolky @ 2008-06-18T15:44:00

2008-06-18T14:44:39Z

I need sleep

But...I don't get enough of it. Because I am too busy helping people.

Go figure :P

And...yeah...I'm gonna stay awake. No point in sleeping when I can help people...Right? :D

kolky @ 2008-06-16T23:18:00

2008-06-16T22:21:17Z

Soo...yeah

It's been a bizarre day.

Ever noticed how when you think somebody's walking away, they come back? Somebody did that to me earlier.

And ever noticed that no matter what you do, you always lose at least one pen a week? I went to make a bank deposit yesterday. No pens. Anywhere >.

kolky @ 2008-06-15T19:35:00

2008-06-15T18:35:47Z

Errr

I kind of think having LJ in Irish on this system...is a BAD idea

As I can't remember what half the buttons do any more. Oh well...time to experiment

If you hear an explosion, it's PROBABLY me breaking something :D

Catch ya'll later :D

Sooo

2008-06-15T18:31:35Z

Sooo...yeah, I'm bored

So I decided to get my LJ up and running. Again, for the...5th? 6th time?

What have you missed? Not a whole lot

Unless you count...a twisted ankle, $600 spent on lacrose gear, and a lot more.

I'm not in the mood to write a long-ish post, I am meant to be eating, not writing.

I need to do 1001 things round here, suggest more...

And ye, I'm not sure if/when I'll update this, but I'll certainly try

Re-hey

2008-01-23T13:36:18Z

I've decided to re-open my LJ again...I dunno why.

First off: R.I.P. Heath Ledger. I never saw any of his films, but from what I've heard, he was a great actor. I'm trying to find any of his films...anyone got any names? I only know Brokeback Mountain.

Secondly...I'm worried I may be turning American. A blend of the Pacific Northwest, Midwest and South-East O.O

Catch y'all tomorrow

Fang

Happy new year!

2008-01-02T15:54:28Z

New year

New resolutions :)

In no order

1) To not be such a bitch to people
2) To LISTEN to people
3) To get better at lacrosse

So there ya go :D

Comments and stuff, ya know where to send 'em

Fang

kolky @ 2007-12-16T12:38:00

2007-12-15T12:42:43Z

Sorry for not updating in a while folks. Been busy

Quick recap: I'm single again. I'm also inspired and working hard as hell to turn my life around. I was reading an article about Little Al, and what he's been through. It just made me think 'whoa. If Al can beat what he's been through, what's stopping me?'

Keeping up the positive note, I found religion. It wasn't behind the back of the sofa. I'm not an uber-pushy religious type, I'm not ramming it down anyone's throat.

Fang

Song #1 in my collection

2007-12-05T23:03:36Z

Yep...this is it

kolky @ 2007-10-19T10:00:00

2007-10-18T08:57:16Z

Hey all...I don't have a career in negotiations ahead of me.

What I do have is loyal friends and people who I'll fight for.

Speaking of fighting, I'm currently defending one of my friends from somebody who is set on hurting her. Said person is being attackedd about some stuff that's going on

kolky @ 2007-10-11T19:28:00

2007-10-10T18:26:40Z

Heeeya all :D

Everything's fallen into place, I've found somebody special, Dani's talking to me again (wooooooo :D), I'm helping the usual bunch.

I do however, hate hospitals with a passion. I went in on Monday for an eye exam, came round and couldn't see a thing. And I lost both Pratchett books too. I don't know HOW I got the marks on my hands, but they're freaky, I have a semi-circular mark on my left hand, along with three needle marks (I /assume/ that's what they are), and similar marks on my right hand.

O_O

I'm sat here going through old logs of stuff I've done and thinking 'What the HELL was I thinking?'. I get to know most of my best friends by weird situations, or quirky situations. And my FM friends are in that category before you ask. What am I missing on there anyway? I know I did a runner...but I'm keeping my ear close to the ground, a friend wants to join

kolky @ 2007-10-05T10:53:00

2007-10-04T09:49:34Z

Hey all, Just sitting here musing and wondering WHO reads my LJ these days :S I'm working flat out on lacrosse and poetry (and both :P), paying through the nose for two servers to do something for a friend and being asked random questions by friends :( Such is life.

Anyway, if any of you read this, need your advice, in that I care deeply about somebody who ain't talking to me.

And I lost an LJ entry, if anyone'd be kind enough to find it, it had 2 poems in it, I tried searching for it, nothing (except digging through stuff I thought I'd buried away, ACK!)

And it also turns out I'm empathic :S Which doesn't really suprise me, as I want to help people

Slan go foill

Fang

kolky @ 2007-09-22T17:08:00

2007-09-21T16:08:34Z

Rehiya all, I'm back again, listening to the Corrs, and talking to friends while posting :)

I'm feeling drained, I take on everyone's problems and try to help them. I don't know why, I just feel drained by it.

Fang

I'm back

2007-09-19T09:49:20Z

After a 3 month hiatus, I'm back again.

What's happened? A hell of a lot.

Two failed romances, a lacrosse career that's suddenly gone downhill, my health's nosedived vertcally, I'm addicted to chocolate, in dannger of being incarcerated.

And a lot more.

I'll update it later on today in detail

Fang

kolky @ 2007-07-26T19:14:00

2007-07-25T18:09:05Z

Hey all....The caffeine's worn off now and I can't type for toffee :( And I feel extremely ill. I guess that's what comes of drinking 12 mugs of hot chocolate in under 3hrs.

Any suggestions? :S

Molar

(Note to freewebs users. I am Irish Raven on there too...check me site...freewebs.com/irishraven)

kolky @ 2007-07-24T17:45:00

2007-07-23T16:40:13Z

Some of you may be wondering what's going on...

A hell of a lot actually.

Things are getting on top of me.

I've just got back in, I have a /stinking/ headache, I nearly fainted twice yesterday and I can't spell for toffee.

Molar

kolky @ 2007-07-15T18:40:00

2007-07-14T17:37:08Z

Ok. YET another update from me.

I'm spooked slightly. On Skype, and being spammed by Finns

*hides*

Molar

kolky @ 2007-07-11T18:40:00

2007-07-10T17:43:05Z

Hey. Make of this sorry-ass tale what you will. I dunno what the truth is any more. And want help working out WTF is going on.

Ok. I know some of you know about this already. But here goes the stuff you probably didn't know.

This complete bitch, 16, English.

You wonder why she's a bitch? Well...Somebody who goes out with a different guy every week, finds one, then sleeps with 20-30 others behind that guy's back, who denies she's done anything wrong, even when she knows it, who keeps trying to cling to broken friendships.

She did this to me. I'm not putting this on here to get back at her. (Well. I am actually), but more as a warning, and a 'how the fuck did this happen and how can I make sure it doesn't happen again.'

Any advice is welcome.

HELP!

Molar

How I feel

2007-07-07T18:14:46Z

This song sums up how I feel....lyrics below

You don't know my name
You don't know anything about me
I try to play nice
I want to be in your game
The things that you say
You may think I never hear about them
But word travels fast
I'm telling you to your face
I'm standing here behind your back

[Chorus]
You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend on the outside looking in

If you could read my mind
You might see more of me that meets the eye
And you've been all wrong
Not who you think I am
You've never given me a chance

[Chorus]
You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend on the outside looking in

Well, I'm tired of staying at home
I'm bored and alone
I'm sick of wasting all my time

[Chorus x2]
You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend on the outside looking in

You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend on the outside looking in
[fade out]

Basically, I just feel like I'm outside of everything, hence the song. I just feel out of the loop, I just feel like hardly anyone cares at the moment. I have a close group of friends, sure, but I don't feel like I can talk to them, or anyone. I wish I could let somebody into my world, so badly, but I dunno if they'd accept me.

Molar

kolky @ 2007-07-08T18:43:00

2007-07-07T17:38:06Z

Quick update today, as I have a raging headache and feel unwell.

Also unhappy, like I'm outside of everything that's going on

Molar

Meh and GRR! (part 2)

2007-07-06T16:51:57Z

Hey. I am still pissy.

Mainly as I've been yelled at for eating sugar. I AM FUCKING DIABETIC!!!!

Ideas/advice???

FFS

Molar

Mehgrr...

2007-07-05T20:14:24Z

Grr. Ok. I am pissy now

Molar

FurryMUCK comedy

2007-07-01T20:22:56Z

You say, "If you can find them, maybe you can hire....the fae team :P"
Odin grumbles, "flehehe..."
Kedau perks a brow "i'm a Fae! what about fae?!"
Phalla yerfs, "Oh, thank you. Now I'm imagining Mr. T with a wand and wings."
Odin grumbles, "HAH!"
( Jordan von Strangle? )
Corr falls off his chair laughng
Odin grumbles, "wow, thats a bad replacement for the tooth fairy"
Odin grumbles, "heres you pound FOO!"
Kedau laughs hard
Corr can't stop laughing
You say, "That is genius. PHOTOSHOP!"
Odin grumbles, "aye!"
Corr lost his trial version unfortunately
Kedau laughs happily
Kedau wonders what kind of furre Mr T would be
Corr laughs harder. "A bear, of course!"
Odin grumbles, "probably a bear...or a gorilla"
Phalla yerfs, "Yeah. A bear."
Odin grumbles, "yeah, what he said"
Phalla yerfs, "Although..."
( I be Supa' Gorilla Grod, sucka! )
Kedau giggles softly
Odin grumbles, "my banana foo!"
Kedau begins to gnaw on Corr's ear.... "i'm hungry =("

Medical stuff

2007-07-01T18:12:49Z

Hey all....

I've been feeling rough, keep blacking out, feeling sick, like I'm gonna faint, keep shaking, have been sick several times. I've been reading up and I could be diabetic.

HELP

Fangfang

Reopening LJ again

2007-06-29T16:10:21Z

Hey all. I'm gonna regularly update LJ again.

CR